Ah Boy’s Thoughts

hey guys, i will no longer be around to blog here as usual, but there will still be post sporadically appearing here. Here is my new blog!!! take care always

http://saujohnson.blogspot.com/

i took some time out. i needed it. i REALLY need it.

ok the plus side i am relaxed more, the hind side? well, its not important… HAHAHAHA…

hope times up and i can be free again!

P/S: this is just a weird mumble by me to myself… I am siaw dy….

Well, i think i am lazing for 5 minutes from what i am doing to “talk”…..

In reality, i would prefer someone real for a change and not this virtual world. Not feeling well again today, but just minor… a stupid migraine, maybe because not sleeping well (again). Having weird dreams… Felt totally disturbed lately, of course just by the dreams.

I felt i am sprawling on the aphalt road and being ran over and over by cars and trucks and lorries on the highway at top speed…. Well, this feeling is because i was hit by reality of some fact that is occuring to me now…. I am so not looking forward to this kind of thing(singular, not plural,,,, I seriously mean thing) occuring to me EVER ^%^%#&*&^**^&) to me again….

On the other hand ever since i started working/studying i am looking more forward to the festive seasons and the public holidays and weekends…. Never know that they were ever so important….

Cant wait for another of these (which is new year, Wopheeee….) Anyway 5 minutes up… Tata

A white christma? No i think i am having a blue one….

Well i am taking a short 15 minute off what i am doing to post a blog to “talk”…. Feeling sick and tired these few days because of some irritating thing and of course a certain particular person irritating me…

How i wish i was not around here, how i wish i was free, how i wish, i wish and i wish…..

But i do really looking forward for the NEW YEAR!!!!! That is what i am looking forward. I think all i have for my new year resolution is ” to keep things simple and in order”. A person had to me to do a simple thing correctly and nicely is something not simple… I now really understand it.

Hope to have a simple year ahead!!! Chers to all my friends and wishing all a happy 2009! =)

I was about to put up a post to grumble about today’s plight. But something have stopped me. I happened to read a post by a friend or maybe someone who is no longer a friend? I meet her on a activity that i once participated in uni, never heard from her ever since THE incident liao. No msn, no msg nothing. Or maybe its just me thinking too much again?

Well life is always as it always be, eventful and never a smooth sailing one. Well this christmas will have to perservere till new year. Hopefully i can have a nice break after that and work even harder for masters. At least something worh a little happy thought is that i finally have the offer letter. thank goodness BUT, i have yet to secure any scholarships/fellowships… and my RA contract is ending AGAIN in February…. DOOM

Woke up to a very unhappy me…. All i can think now is that MONEY IS THE ROOT OF ALL EVIL(UNHAPPINESS)

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to all friends out there and whoever is still reading this.

Well, just suddenly have an urge to have a post before heading for the showers. Just back from Kuching for a 9 day EXPERIMENT…. Dead tired and never knew how hard it is to conduct something halfway in the rain. When u are so dead tired and busy, even my sorethroat, flue and caugh excelerated till (normally takes weeks to get better) it ends in like a week.

Well, off to kuching meaning i have to take a flight, so it is the first time for me flying, but yet i am the least excited. Don’t know why…? Now back in UM, i have to work my ass off again. But hope to get more stuff done. Not planning to sleep tonight i think as there are still tons to do.

Another few weeks have past and things just blew past me. Many thing let me have more wondering thoughts. How people reacts and how people expects…

Feeling alil blue lately. Hope that there will be progress in the coming year, being more prosperous and healthy as well.

I felt stupid for dispensing solutions to a good friend. i totally felt that way…

I am tired, Physically and mentally. Well it is a really blue day as well. Well here i am, totally i should say disorientated i guess. First of all, my life is like in a total mess. Piling laundry, messy room, totally not energised and have work which stretch from now till like christmas. Not yet a student, just a RA. Very slow at work….. HELP….

Today i totally pissed someone off. I don’t really mean it, but… haih…. i guess you won’t understand even i explained to you… i guessed no one would. try to be me for once.

now today i am tired, depressed, sad and disappointed

I guess i hardly blog anymore. I still complains, but to the wall rather than any one of you out there. HAha but some how, at times i will still wanna rant here….

So Tired lately, just need to have abit of rest… But what am i doin now??? Typing away precious sleep time writing this post…. (hmmmmppph menyampah lah…. how can i do this???)

Well i guess moving on with life i change and change…. Getting less emotional?? or emotionless? Don’t know laa……

Spending less time with myself, friends and family……. Maybe this is what is happening with everyone. When we move on evetually everyone loses touch or contacts…. Hardly heard from anyone anymore….

Thats life…..

Well haven’t been up to date with anyone yet recently, in hope to have a minimal sanity i think why don’t i post a blog?? Though still far too lazy to start with blogspot.

Had a horrid migraine today and ended up not working… Things havent been going well (since when it did??) Oh well… And as i blog now my eyes are progressively less itch but my left eyes have become swollen from my continuous rubbing!! Ish..

Well, just went out with my ex roomies and kolej friends namely >>> Gerald, Jaysen, LaiC, Boonwei, Peypey, Yinyin, Yingen, Chaiming, JooHong atIsland cafe for a yumcha session. Well havent been together for ages i guessed. Fun Fun Fun

LAden with lots of work due to my procrastinating skills… ALAMAK… so i wanna die already… ish KENOT procrastinate la johnson.. Lab work?? Not so good also… Why?? too much too explain and to lazy to blog on it…

Well some one (two some ones to be exact) told me to take things easier so it would be better… Well after today i hope it would be a better tomorrow.

Let things go to their flow, but life is always manage by our own…